Last night and today I have been blessed as I have taken time to reflect on the eighteen years of God's goodness to me! Eighteen years! How can it be? And God has been faithful every step of the way...
This year, especially, I have been able to record many of those instances of His goodness and faithfulness. Last night I took the time to read nearly all my journal entries from February to July, I believe it was, and I was encouraged to read things that the Lord taught me this year, blessings He has bestowed, prayers He has answered, difficult times that He has brought me through, surprises He has set before me! He is so good!
I noticed that last year in my journal I said that I wanted two things for my 17th year:
1) "To go and stay at Hadleys for a little while and help them"
2) "To finish a book and have it at least on the way to publication"
I had to smile at that! The Lord granted the first in early May by working it out for me to go and stay at my dear friends' house for a week and a half-- one of the most wonderful weeks-and-a-half that I have ever had! :-D
The lack of fulfillment of the second is my fault... ;-) I have not finished a book yet, BUT I may have a publisher for The Marquis' Daughter! I have been in contact with a small-scale publisher who is interested in looking into it when I finish it! The Lord is good!
I am feeling like eighteen is a very "big" age. A person is granted a lot more at age 18 and is practically an adult. Not only am I now 18, but I am also nearly done with grade school. More and more, I am thinking about what I want to do with my life, what the Lord would have me to do with it, rather. As a child of God, my heart's desire is, above all, to glorify God and continually be changed into his image. As for specific things to do, I am not so sure. Writing is the one thing I feel like I actually know. Further than that, I have no clue! My heart is to work with some kind of children's ministry. My overactive, imaginative, adventurous mind thinks that it would be awesome to maybe go on a missions trip and help at an orphanage or something in Eastern Europe or someplace! But at the same time, I want to be here and be able to visit the Hadleys again, and just be available for whatever comes my way! I do not want to go to college or get married this year! So you see, I am doing a lot of thinking, but I really don't know what to do. Can you all please continue to pray for me as I seek to know and do God's will in my life?
Meanwhile, here is a quote that I found copied in my journal sometime back that I may have copied here, but it is lost in the jumble of posts over the long months... ;-) This is with thoughts of each day consecrating my life to my Lord:
"One does not surrender a life in an instant-- that which is lifelong can only be surrendered in a lifetime." -Jim Elliot
For fun, here is a picture from my birthday. I am SO grateful to the Lord for blessing me so richly with so many dear friends, and thank you to Megan, the Reynolds, and my own dear family for making my day so special!